Every once in a while, you catch a break. Or you think you did, and then in retrospect, your insecurities jump up and slap you.
In my hotel room, had been messaging with a guy about my impending trip. The pics looked good, and he seemed genuinely interested. About 9 in the evening, with a thunderstorm approaching, he makes his way over to the hotel. That's commitment, there...
He comes in the room, and, oh, lordy...6 foot 4, broad shouldered, nice mop of black hair, handsome with a nice set of teeth (details are a funny thing, aren't they?). He had barely gotten in the room, gave a quick hi, and he was undressing. Little did I know that was the last talk I'd hear from him until he was walking out the door...
Tanned body, shaved all over, i could go on and on about what a physical specimen this guy was. Things started out well, we made out - love that - ran hands all over each other. We made it to the bed, he laid back and I climbed on top, again, making out, licking his neck, ears, nipples, moving back up, and down, he even tasted good!
He enjoyed playing with my nipples. I do enjoy that, so was glad to have some action. Gave him some head, sucked those smooth balls, up, down and all around. He seemed to enjoy my fingers, so I found myself rimming him. I don't do that often, but damned if the guy didn't taste so good! I finally got some moans out of him, so i dug in for the long haul. I tongued that hole...and licked...and sucked...he enjoyed it, and I did too. I rubbed my cock head all around it, but with no protection, didn't push in. Restraint, right?
I worked a finger in, and went back to his cock. Felt it get bitter and bigger in my mouth, a little bucking of the hips, and a nudge of his prostate, and he was blowing in my mouth. Not a huge load, but enough that I could handle it.
He exited to the bathroom and cleaned up, came back in the room and said "You wanna get off?". I declined, one in hopes that i could find another playmate later, and also because it felt obvious that he wasn't usually a giver. Which leads me to the insecurities...
Why can't I just let myself enjoy this? A hot guy shows up in my room, we make out, lick, suck, and enjoy, and I still think "why didn't he go down on me? Was I unattractive to him? Just good enough to blow him but not good enough for him? Why didn't he talk?" I told him how hot he was...nothing in return. He barely spoke.
So I just need to let that go. I had a hot time, and if he knocked on the door again, I'd lay him back and do it all over again. So, I need to stop being a baby, and just enjoy what life brings!
Do your insecurities get the best of you???
Not many people are into making out with people they don't like. I get what you're referring to, but some guys are like that. Just my 2 cents.
ReplyDeleteBtw, did you enjoy my cock pic?
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I always enjoy cock pics. :) But not sure I saw it? Maybe a refresher..lol
DeleteUnderstood, some don't like to kiss at all, i get that, to each their own.
Of course, but in the hook-up game, I'm happy to be the giver or receiver of about anything. I'm happy if they are sane, and in decent shape.
ReplyDeleteOnce again, the voice of reason. I did enjoy, so need to take it for what it's worth. Which was pretty good.
DeleteIt helps to be clear in your online communication what you want and to clarify what they want. I hooked up with a guy who wanted to be spanked and handcuffed. He said nothing in online conversation about spanking or handcuffs. I thought we were going to have an oral hook up. So I spanked him while he was handcuffed. He got off but I didn’t get much from the encounter.
ReplyDeleteI have a lot of insecurities, mostly centered on body image. I hit the gym a lot so I’m in better shape than most of the men my age I meet. Most times I can let my insecurities go and just enjoy the encounter.
It helps to be clear in your online communication what you want and to clarify what they want. I hooked up with a guy who wanted to be spanked and handcuffed. He said nothing in online conversation about spanking or handcuffs. I thought we were going to have an oral hook up. So I spanked him while he was handcuffed. He got off but I didn’t get much from the encounter.
I have a lot of insecurities, mostly centered on body image. I hit the gym a lot so I’m in better shape than most of the men my age I meet. Most times I can let my insecurities go and just enjoy the encounter.
I do enjoy my encounters when they happen, it's usually after that I get those nagging thoughts. I need to be in a better place about myself to let them go.
DeleteI agree that being clear and having an idea what is going to go on is important. I don't want to cross lines or make anyone uncomfortable, so knowing what's up beforehand is good.
I just stumbled upon your blog and have read all of your posts. Thanks for sharing your stories. I have kept a blog sporadically off and on over the years and it does help to write this kind of stuff down. Keep sharing....
ReplyDeleteThanks, it's been good for me so far. Feels good to lay things out there, and hear from others in similar situations.
DeleteIt does feel good to know that there is always someone out there who gets it. I look forward to future posts....
ReplyDeleteI do get it, i think. Thanks!
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